I’m heading off to summer camp in a couple minutes, but wanted to share something with you guys before I took off. In light of this holiday, I think that this journal entry I wrote during Spring Break has a lot to say about freedom and dependence.
The Grand Canyon is the biggest thing I have ever seen. Sitting on the rim gives you chills. I feel so small. If I didn’t believe in a creator God who loves me, this small feeling would be belitting. Sitting on the edge of such a magnificent place would make me feel insignificant. I’d ask myself what hope I have in making an impact in a world too big to wrap my mind around. Why try? Why not just go with the flow, pursue happiness, and know my place? How naïve would I be to think that I could change this place.
I sit on the ledge and I read romans 8. “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or nakedness or danger or sword?” “In all things, we are more than conquerers through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything else in all of creation, will be able to separate us from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
I am small but He isn’t and He loves me. So I sit with the assurance that I am loved and yet perspective that I am small. On my own, I can’t put a dent in this world. So I’ll have a confident humility in Christ, that He loves me, wants to invite me into the beautiful story He is weaving throughout the cosmos, and will use me to glorify Himself.
We sat there right on the cliff, close enough to where the tourists were taking pictures of the foolish 19 year olds instead of the endless canyon they had came to see. We sat there and we worshipped the God who carved that canyon, the God who looks down on our messy, small selves and says we’re worth dying for. Music trickled out of my dingy I-pod speaker and we worshipped.
“My chains are gone, I’ve been set free. My God my Savior has ransomed me, and like a flood, His mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace.”
“O to grace how great a debtor, daily I’m constrained to thee. Let they goodness like a fetter bind my wandering heart to Thee.”
“Prone to wander, Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love. Here’s my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above.”
This trip, the beauty of creation, the truth of a Creator, and the love of my brothers, makes it harder to wander. It makes it so much more clear that I am delightfully constrained to grace. It makes it so much easier to leave behind the chains and walk in the freedom of His love.
Jesus sets us free when we realize how freeing it is to be constrained to His grace and forgiveness.
On the day that we celebrate the signing of the Declaration of Independence as a country, I want to celebrate a declaration of dependence. We’re dependent on the love and mercy of our God. And from that place of dependence, He sets us free. He calls us to follow Him and promises that where we’re going is more freeing than anything this world has to offer.
Happy fourth y’all.